Today I'm in a much different place than the person who wrote that journal entry. I'm no longer a nanny and work for myself as a full-time mindset and business coach.
WOW. I remember feeling so burnt-out and stuck, and totally terrified to invest in my first coach. But it was truly one of the best decisions of my life.
About a month after I wrote those lines I launched my first workshop for $25 per person and 5 people signed up for a total of $125. That might not seem like a lot, but at the time I was amazed.
It felt like a miracle that I could create an offering rooted in my own wisdom, knowledge, healing, and expertise and share it with others, AND get paid for it.
It was about way more than receiving that money, it represented confirmation that I could eventually leave nannying and do fulfilling work rooted in my integrity and values.
And now between Terra Incognita Media and Vesta Business School, that’s exactly what I have today!
Of course, we must also account for my positions of power that also led me to where I am today: being a thin, cishet, white woman with pretty privilege from an upper-middle class background from a two-parent home, who holds a college degree and no criminal record absolutely contributed to making my goals a reality.
It’s important to acknowledge both: systems of oppression exist and impact us tangibly, and we all have personal agency and power that we might not be fully tapping into, or might not know how to.
For me, I wasn’t tapping into my personal power and I also didn’t know *how.*
Today, I wake up every morning knowing that I’m the sole architect of my day and I get to work with fellow anti-capitalist entrepreneurs who are dedicated to dismantling “business as usual.”
I used to feel selfish for wanting to transition out of nannying. Maybe you're feeling trapped at your job and can relate. But it’s not selfish to want to make a thriving wage with your inherent talents, skills, and gifts. It’s not selfish to want to do work that lights you the fuck up!